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re_alignment2013-01-12 02:27 pm
winged_knight) wrote in re_alignment2013-01-12 02:27 pm
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[Text][Private Messages to Various Separate Recipients] (Backdated to mid last week)
((ooc: He'll only be gone 1.5-2 weeks, give or take, (remember this is backdated). He won't respond to replies but will see them, possibly before, but at the very least when he returns.))
[He'd let things spiral out of control. Whether is was because he'd gotten lax with the usual care he put into things or so many millennium of peace in Crystal City weakening his ability to cope with strife... or, potentially something darker, he wasn't sure. But something needed to be done, and losing himself in his responsibilities here was not the answer. His encounter with Drift had rocked his center loose and he'd been unable to regain it since. His response to First Aid's request to say something at the memorial pyre had come so easily, then it struck him: Was he even still worthy of the task, the honor? He'd let the doubts and questions linger for too long.]
[It was time to seek them out. Wing takes only his weapons, a first aid kit, and as much in the way of provisions he can carry then leaves to go on "walkabout" in the wilds of young Cybertron. But before he goes, he leaves a few messages for people.]
McCrane and Ultra Magnus,
I apologize for the lack of notice, but for personal reasons I need to step away for an indeterminate time. I can't estimate how long my sabbatical will take, but please do not hold up any matters on my account. I know that Pharma still needs to be dealt with, but Ultra Magnus easily fills the Vectorian alignment needed for the Committee and does not have conflict of interest that I do, (might I remind you that Drift was one of Pharma's victims).
Soundwave,
I need to get away for a while. Not sure for how long, but obviously I won't be able to staff the bar. Swerve may have some ideas for who we might go to for more help. Take care of things while I'm gone, all right? Thank you.
Kagerou,
I need to leave Haven for a time, and as a good friend I didn't want to leave you without notice. I need to take some time to clear my head, to seek answers, to get lost until I find myself again. I don't know how long I'll be gone, but stay safe okay?
Vandal,
I'm sorry to fly off with no notice, but I must go before I complicate things further. I wish you well in all things, and you know what I mean. Drift may need you more than ever now. I've only ever wanted to see to his happiness, but I've managed to squelch it instead. He deserves love and kindness. I know you give that regardless, but maybe you could make up for my share while I'm gone?
[The last one he delivers personally, quietly keying the lock and slipping into Drift's room while he's away, leaving a datapad on the berth. He cycles a deep vent, flutters of trepidation at taking this step, letting this...out, turning around in his tanks. But no, he's committed to it, he'd see it through.]
Drift,
I'm sorry for all that's transpired. I can't even begin to express my regret. I'm leaving for a time; I feel I've lost not only my footing but my center and I need to find it again before I complicate things further.
There's a thread of darkness in me and I don't know if it's real or imagined. But I can't ignore what the pages have done nor can I forget that my resurrection is an effect of the Lambda, Unicron's influence, and not the Firstforged. Perhaps I've been selfishly seeking affirmation of my faith and worthiness in the wrong places and ways. I don't know. But I do know that no matter how it's celebrated, Faith should come from within first. Not from those outside oneself.
But finding the strength in others when faced with difficult journeys is not a bad thing. I should have confided in you more. Trusted you to still accept me despite my flaws. Instead I thought I was being noble in saving you from the burden, when really I was shutting you out.
I want to rectify that. And because it's resurfaced...the issue with the pages, perhaps I can start there.
If you truly want...some insight into that, you'll find it on this datapad, under the violet entries. Read with caution. You'll know the pass code, you've always had access from the very beginning. I probably don't need to ask you not to share this with anyone else, but there it is anyway.
I don't know how long I'll be gone, until I can get things sorted or I run out of provisions.
I love you, still. I don't want to let you go. It's...not right for me to hold you back though, especially in my absence. The choice is yours. If you're still willing to speak to me when I return, after all this, maybe, I hope, we can start again?
With deepest regards ~ Wing
[He'd let things spiral out of control. Whether is was because he'd gotten lax with the usual care he put into things or so many millennium of peace in Crystal City weakening his ability to cope with strife... or, potentially something darker, he wasn't sure. But something needed to be done, and losing himself in his responsibilities here was not the answer. His encounter with Drift had rocked his center loose and he'd been unable to regain it since. His response to First Aid's request to say something at the memorial pyre had come so easily, then it struck him: Was he even still worthy of the task, the honor? He'd let the doubts and questions linger for too long.]
[It was time to seek them out. Wing takes only his weapons, a first aid kit, and as much in the way of provisions he can carry then leaves to go on "walkabout" in the wilds of young Cybertron. But before he goes, he leaves a few messages for people.]
McCrane and Ultra Magnus,
I apologize for the lack of notice, but for personal reasons I need to step away for an indeterminate time. I can't estimate how long my sabbatical will take, but please do not hold up any matters on my account. I know that Pharma still needs to be dealt with, but Ultra Magnus easily fills the Vectorian alignment needed for the Committee and does not have conflict of interest that I do, (might I remind you that Drift was one of Pharma's victims).
Soundwave,
I need to get away for a while. Not sure for how long, but obviously I won't be able to staff the bar. Swerve may have some ideas for who we might go to for more help. Take care of things while I'm gone, all right? Thank you.
Kagerou,
I need to leave Haven for a time, and as a good friend I didn't want to leave you without notice. I need to take some time to clear my head, to seek answers, to get lost until I find myself again. I don't know how long I'll be gone, but stay safe okay?
Vandal,
I'm sorry to fly off with no notice, but I must go before I complicate things further. I wish you well in all things, and you know what I mean. Drift may need you more than ever now. I've only ever wanted to see to his happiness, but I've managed to squelch it instead. He deserves love and kindness. I know you give that regardless, but maybe you could make up for my share while I'm gone?
[The last one he delivers personally, quietly keying the lock and slipping into Drift's room while he's away, leaving a datapad on the berth. He cycles a deep vent, flutters of trepidation at taking this step, letting this...out, turning around in his tanks. But no, he's committed to it, he'd see it through.]
Drift,
I'm sorry for all that's transpired. I can't even begin to express my regret. I'm leaving for a time; I feel I've lost not only my footing but my center and I need to find it again before I complicate things further.
There's a thread of darkness in me and I don't know if it's real or imagined. But I can't ignore what the pages have done nor can I forget that my resurrection is an effect of the Lambda, Unicron's influence, and not the Firstforged. Perhaps I've been selfishly seeking affirmation of my faith and worthiness in the wrong places and ways. I don't know. But I do know that no matter how it's celebrated, Faith should come from within first. Not from those outside oneself.
But finding the strength in others when faced with difficult journeys is not a bad thing. I should have confided in you more. Trusted you to still accept me despite my flaws. Instead I thought I was being noble in saving you from the burden, when really I was shutting you out.
I want to rectify that. And because it's resurfaced...the issue with the pages, perhaps I can start there.
If you truly want...some insight into that, you'll find it on this datapad, under the violet entries. Read with caution. You'll know the pass code, you've always had access from the very beginning. I probably don't need to ask you not to share this with anyone else, but there it is anyway.
I don't know how long I'll be gone, until I can get things sorted or I run out of provisions.
I love you, still. I don't want to let you go. It's...not right for me to hold you back though, especially in my absence. The choice is yours. If you're still willing to speak to me when I return, after all this, maybe, I hope, we can start again?
With deepest regards ~ Wing