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[ Like every medic, First Aid has had his hands full. He's sort of... numb to deaths though. It was kind of his job and all and certainly he's seen plenty after Delphi. At most, he feels some remorse. ]

Those of you who still have not received medical attention, there is still room at the medbay for repairs. If you can't make it to there, please let me know. I'm more than willing to respond to 'house calls'. Please don't ignore your injuries.

[ He rubs his hands together. ]

I... I'm sorry to all those who have lost people dear to them. If there is anything I can do to assist, let me know.

I think, maybe, everyone might benefit from a memorial service.

I... wasn't able to help Ironfist in the end but... I wanted to thank you for helping me try.

[/Perceptor]

We've never spoken before. I guess I really didn't need to before. I'm First Aid.

[ Hello, he is one of yours, okay. ]

There are some things I could value some answers on. And advice as well.

[/Megatronus]

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[ First Aid wishes he could have done more. There's a lot he wishes had gone differently. ]

They're been tombed and buried in Alpha Trion's quadrant. At most, the Firstforged have equated their remains to trash.

[ He dims his optics. ]

I'm sorry, Drift. If you need anyone, I'm here.

[Drift feels that way himself. But at least First Aid could heal. Drift couldn't.]

....all of them? Even Rodimus? [The pain is clear in his voice, trying to imagine the bright spark that was Rodimus cold and buried in the ground.]

[He frowns at the First Forged. All he needs is another reason to distrust them.] I suppose we should feel grateful they 'let' us have the remains.

No, First Aid, it's not that. I remember. Things that I shouldn't. Things like..._{what happened at Delphi.}

[ He nods, solemnly. ]

All of them. If you... would like to pay respects, Ultra Magnus could help direct you to his grave site...

[ First Aid didn't want to lose faith in them entirely-- They were meant to be their protectors and... they had been right, even if it all had been terrible. ]

You... You remember Delphi? What do you remember?

I...don't think it's a good idea to bother Ultra Magnus about this. Right now.

[For a lot of reasons, but starting with 'awkward'.]

I remember. Cutting off Pharma's hands, and the cure, and then...everything.

_{I remember Theophany.}

Oh. [ Yeah, he's pretty injured. Other reasons go over his head though. ] If... you want, I can bring you.

[ WAIT WHAT. ]

W-Wait! I don't remember that! So Fortress Maximus-- [ Was right, and then... He was right too. ]

There's a lot more than me that you remember now.

[Drift hasn't seen him so he can't say.]

I can probably find it. You have other things to do.

[He's not sure what he'd do there, anyway. Not a lot of burials in his experience. Look at a piece of ground?]

Fortress Maximus. [Right. Maybe not a great character witness at the moment, First Aid.]

If you're sure. Figured I'd offer, you know, as a friend.

[ He shrugs, but enough of that. He's pretty perplexed. ]

I don't remember any of that, Drift. [ He rubs his helm. How to tactfully address this without rubbing in... death. First Aid personally was still shaken over his own. It was unnatural to come back, and he still didn't feel right. ]

Do you... feel any different?

I just...if he's buried, as in underground, what's the point? He's not there.

I feel, it's just strange. Others said they lost memories. Forgot things. Why do I remember?

Mmn. It is a bit weird. [ Putting bodies underground? That just seemed to be inviting for rust, and after Red Rust, First Aid personally didn't want to think about rusting bodies. ]

I'm not sure... I mean, I don't remember how I died, but that makes sense. When someone experiences severe physical trauma, it's normal to have a spotty memory. But I didn't come back knowing anything more or less than before. I just felt... weird.

I guess it makes sense, where Blurr's from. And in a way, they become part of this place.

[He's trying to make it make sense, wrestle with his own discomfort. It's...not going so well.]

[He nods.] I don't remember either. Just some flashes when I try to recharge. [A shrug: he's got so many bad memories, this barely fazes him.]

[ Eugh. Okay. He's not comfortable with that idea, but he needed to show support. ]

I'm sure there was no disrepect intended.

[ He's impressed at least. ]

If you remember new things-- Maybe something special has happened to you.

No, I don't think there was.

[He doesn't want to think about it. It's hard enough to think about Rodimus...gone.]

Special? [A laugh.] I don't think so.

[ First Aid's plating flares. The bits that aren't blocky at least. It's the closest he can get to looking offended. ]

No, see? You're always so dismissive. Drift, I think you're something special. You've experienced things that no other mech has.

[...uh oh.]

I, uh, I didn't mean anything, uh, to upset you. [He has no idea how to deal with this.]

I'm just...the mech who did the wrong thing for half the war.

[ You are one of the few mechs that has gotten First Aid to be poofy. ]

I get that. But I still think you're wrong.

I mean, what's wrong with doing the wrong thing? We make mistakes! You're not just a mech.

[It'd be really cute if the poof wasn't aimed at Drift.]

[He gives a nervous laugh.] I made a big one. One a lot of mechs don't think are fixable. [He doubts it himself.]

Neither are you, First Aid.

[ Suck it up, Drift. ]

Do you think it's fixable? Are you going to punish yourself for the rest of your life if it's not?

[~~kinky?~~]

If I didn't think it was, I wouldn't be trying.

[ ~~bow chicka bowwow~~ ]

Good. Keep trying.

You too. [He says it because it sounds like the right and cheerful thing to say, then pauses, realizing it makes no damn sense.]

[Awkward pause.]

Thank you. I mean, for doing what you do. It can't be easy.

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