[video- action]

[raceme]

[The video starts on the medbay with Blurr half lying half sitting on a berth, looking fairly confused. When he speaks he still sounds tired but he tries to smile for a brief moment.]

Greetings, everyone.

I’m finally awake, sorry if I worried anyone. Could someone tell me what is going on?

[To explain Blurr’s confused face, there happens to be a group of small glowing bugs perched on the spike of his head, like birds lined up on a power line. Some bugs are also on the top of his pointy shoulders and a really small one is lazily sitting on his chest.

On the background, Blurr’s turbofox is chasing the glowing bugs around the medbay and making a mess of things.]

Comments

[thxforthememories]

It's important to do those things, though, isn't it? For... for the lost.

[raceme]

I think it gives everyone closure and it's a mark of respect. That's important.

[thxforthememories]

Closure.

Do you have closure now, Blurr?

[raceme]

I wasn't close to those who died but I killed some of them. I owed them a proper funeral.

[He's avoiding answering your question >.>]

[thxforthememories]

... You killed some of them?

[raceme]

When they went mad and there was no other way to stop them. [Blurr grimaces, remembering. He had fought and killed before, but mostly during the war. His area of expertise was investigating and spying and he's against killing unless it's in self defense.]

Fulcrum was blowing up things just by pointing at them. He was going to blow up one of the temples.

[thxforthememories]

How... do you accept it?

Does it ever get easier to think about?

[raceme]

Killing, you mean? [Ah, how does he explain this=] It's never easy and not something that should be accepted. But there's times when it can't be avoided. I don't really like to do it but I did it to protect others.

Depends on the person. Some won't think much about it. Others will never forget that sort of things. I think it's important to remember what happened and why but not obsess over it to the point you can't moveon. [He's so very uncomfortable right now.]

[thxforthememories]

I... don't think I could ever forget it.

[Not that he likes forgetting things, anyway.]

How can you move on? From... something like that?

[raceme]

You are talking about something that happened here or in your world?

Take each day as it comes. Those moments when you are so sure you won't get through come and go. You will discover that you are stronger than you think Kagerou. Talking to others helps, maybe you could see Rung.

[thxforthememories]

... Here. Something that happened... here.

[It's still hard to talk about.]

I've already bothered him. He has enough to do without speaking to me constantly.

[raceme]

With the glyphless?

[Blurr sounds concerned, he's not trying just to gossip or pry.]

He's a therapist Kagerou, listening is what he does best.

You could talk to me instead if you wanted.

[thxforthememories]

... Yes. With the Glyphless.

I know he is. He's good to speak to. But... I don't know.

You have enough trouble as it is, as well.

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[raceme]

Does this have anything to do with Gunmax and that human who was his friend?

Take your time. I don't mind, really. I am always busy so that's not going to change.

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[thxforthememories]

No...? What human?

[He was sort of dead for the start of the whole Glyphless thing.]

I'll consider it.

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[raceme]

Oh, no one. It's sorta private. [He doesn't think that Gunmax would like others to know then.]

[D: WHAT.]

That's all I ask, thanks Kagerou.

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[thxforthememories]

Private. Right.

[No sense in prying.]

Okay.