re_alignment | [Audio]

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✘ tf: prime | smokescreen

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[Smokescreen was having one of those days again. Or maybe it was better to just say he was having one of those existences. He couldn't find his place in Haven and mostly just seemed to annoy everyone.

And then on top of that, there was still a heavy guilt weighing down on his spark over Optimus' fate.

The approaching Earth holiday that he'd been made aware of did nothing to improve his mood so he'd decided just to stay put in Alpha Trion's temple for awhile and just...hide. Yeah, that was about the gist of it.

Didn't mean he wasn't going to check in on people though.]

Everyone alright? Bulkhead? Arcee? Ratchet? You guys are all safe right?

And Kagerou, did you find Kay? I tried to find her but I couldn't track her down and then I ran into Perceptor and Wheeljack and--...she's alright..right?

Just...wanted to let you guys know I'm going to be sticking close to Alpha Trion's temple for a bit. So you don't need to worry about me or anything. And if you need me that's where I'll be.

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Very true..very true.

Don't forget it then. [Have a small smile, Smokey.]

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Is there any _particularthing bothering you?

....Just...missing someone that's not here. And I feel like I don't belong, I guess.

I can empathize with that second feeling. Might I ask who's the person you are missing or that's too personal?

You seem pretty well liked here though, Blurr.

[There's a long pause.]

....Optimus.

I'm not so sure. [Lately he had some not so great conversations with people and the giant insect mess made him realize a few things.]

[He knows what happened to the Optimus that was here, now he realizes why is Smokescreen looking so down.]

He was a brave mech, until the end. Maybe he will come back, you never know.

Sounds to me like you're just thinking low of yourself, Blurr. You have a lot of others that care about you.

[Smokescreen's seen it.]

..I...even if he did..I don't..think I could face him.

So do you, Smokescreen. [What's the difference? See what he did here]

Why not? Nothing that happened was your fault.

I annoy everyone though. There's a difference.

...I..there...I should have found another away. I should have been able to help him but I couldn't.

I failed him. Completely.

HelllOOOOOoooo are you hearing me talk? I irritate _everyone by default just opening my mouth. [Blurr can't even control his speech pattern.] You are not annoying Smokescreen, who told you that?

We can't always help, that's not failing. Not even the Firstforged could help him, it was beyond everyone's power.

I don't think it's annoying. Hard to understand sometimes, maybe, but not annoying.

[Have a half hearted laugh.]

Arcee can't stand me most of the time. Ratchet generally doesn't seem to want me around. I've upset my guardians on more than one occasion...

That's not the point, Blurr. He was my leader--he was the one that kept our family together and he's gone! Because of me. It's my fault.

Thanks, Smokescreen. [Sadly not everyone shares that opinion.]

To be honest she looks like she can't stand many people we didn't exactly get along when we met, don't ask. Shesreallyrude. Guardians?

But how is this your fault?

Arcee's a good fighter and good at what she does in general but she's..got a chip on her shoulder. And Ultra Magnus and Perceptor. Optimus asked them to watch over me so they're my guardians.

Because I wasn't good enough to figure out a solution. I studied under Alpha Trion back in my world, I should have been able to figure something out! But I could't. I just..I failed.

Don't we all have those? I don't' know Perceptor all that much but Ultra Magnus is a good mechs. Really reliable.

The FirstForged couldn't figure a solution and one of them is Alpha Trion itself, Smokescreen.

Yeah, Alpha Trion is here, but that doesn't mean that he knows everything about things in other universes. The Alpha Trion I studied under might have known things that this one didn't and maybe there was an answer to all of this that I missed--that I couldn't think of.

[In reality, he knows that Blurr is right. He just can't shake his guilt.]

That's a...good point.But we can't always torture ourselves with the what if, Smokescreen.

[he wished he could find a way to make Smokescreen better, he knows very well what guilt can do.]

It's...hard not to...

I know because I do that. And trust me, you don't to end like me.

Maybe we need to help each other then.

Do you really think we can do that?

Never hurts to try. And I'm willing if you are.

Yes. I am.

Good. Then it's settled.

Excellent. See you soon, Smokescreen.

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