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re_alignment2012-10-02 01:04 pm
engrishdetective) wrote in re_alignment2012-10-02 01:04 pm
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Deckerd's missing. He's not answering the Link or the badge.
So I'm thinking: must be that calling business.
Which means he's probably in the Badlands. Hmm?
Guess I know where I'll be for awhile.
So I'm thinking: must be that calling business.
Which means he's probably in the Badlands. Hmm?
Guess I know where I'll be for awhile.
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...I don't know. Maybe it's something else. But history says it's probably one place. That's where Breakdown ended up, and that's where others have gone.
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[He's grasping here for anything, because anything is better than the Badlands.]
True... Do you really think he'd succumb to something like that? [Wing's brow tilts with worry. He couldn't imagine it--denial is a powerful thing--but Gunmax and the other Braves knew Deckerd far better than Wing did.]
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...No. I don't. But then, I don't know much about this Calling business.
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I'm sorry, you're right. You've probably examined all these options already, it's your job after all. I just...
[He shakes his helm, still denying it even as he speaks.]
...it's hard to imagine. I've felt it, heard it...the Calling. When I went with Ashitaka to the Badlands. [Robots don't really go pale, but if they had an equivalent it's what Wing's face looks like now.]
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It's hard to explain. Words don't really do it justice. But you know that feeling when you're sad or depressed? Or when you've been angry for a while and are finally so wrung out there's nothing left? Heavy, listless, weighted down but empty....
But instead of inside your mind, it's all around you. Getting under your plating, worming into the cracks. Dragging, pulling at you. Like if you aren't careful it'll steal pieces of you... And maybe you wouldn't care so much...
[He runs a hand over his face.]
And there was whispering. It was near constant, in the back of my processor, when we were closest. But I fought it. Put other thoughts in my head. Focusing on it, trying to figure out the words...just made it worse. Like I was letting it in.
[He just looks sad now, his head bowed and the gold of his optics dimming as they shutter slightly.] I can't imagine Deckerd succumbing...
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Yuuta and Deckerd are the strongest people that Gunmax knows. If they ...]
Neither can I.
Maybe I'm just worked up and jumping to the wrong conclusions. I'm hoping I'm wrong, Wing.
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[His optics tilt sympathetically.]
That's not to say we should give up. I'll start a search pattern locally, just in case. And...whatever helps you through this, whatever you need to do, just don't do it alone okay? I'll go with you, if you want to search.
I know...if it was Drift, I wouldn't rest until I'd done everything in my power.
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...Yeah. So, you get it.
[In an abstract way, that's as good as admitting how strongly he feels.]
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[And maybe it'll definitively answer a question that's been lingering in Wing's mind. If there was any trace of that darkness from Alpha Trion pages left in him, surely it would answer the calling...]
I do. [He nods solemnly. Wing may not have known before, or been certain, but he is now.]
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And drag me out with you.
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[His helm nods a strong affirmative.] I will. I know Deckerd wouldn't want you getting yourself lost on his behalf. And I couldn't leave you out there either.
[A brief smile crosses his face: he's glad you trust him.]
I'll start a local search now if you want to prep? It's several days journey and that's in a straight line. I should let Drift know... Are there others you want to bring?
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Kagerou and Blurr have invited themselves. We'll see who else decides to be a self-sacrificing hero type and take it from there. I won't make it a big group, as much as that'd fluster Deckerd.
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And even better. [He chuckles dryly, because he can just see Deckerd being flustered over a huge search party.]
I'll limit comm traffic so I can focus while searching. Just ping me when you're ready to depart and I'll join you.
We'll do our best to find him Gunmax.
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...Wing. Thank you.
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