voice | trion's temple

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[This isn't where he was supposed to be. He was on the roof just a second ago. Why... why is he in the temple now? It doesn't make any sense.]

[And then the feeling of loss sets in. Considering he can no longer recall the events leading up to, and including the fight with Overlord, he can only assume this loss is of memory itself. The most important thing he has...]

[... needless to say, when it finally occurs to him to grab the Link and make a call, he sounds utterly frantic.]

Someone -- please. I don't know what happened. I...

[He actually needs a moment to calm down enough to speak.]

... My memory is... there is something missing. I can feel -- I can feel it!

Please. Help.

[This is the most distressing thing in the world... at least until someone tells him he was dead a minute ago.]

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It's not okay! It's not all right! I don't remember! My memories--

No. No, I don't... no.

[drillsandballs]

[He fretted about how to make this better for his friend, very worried about him.]

Kagerou, I... can't say I really understand what you are going through, but we will do something about this, we won't just ignore it. Okay?

I... think I know some of the memories you are missing, the aren't nice, and I... I don't know if you should remember that stuff.

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I don't care -- I don't care how nice they are! They're me.

They're all I have.

Everything... I am.

I need them. I need every one of them.

[drillsandballs]

Okay.

You died.

We were facing Overlord and he killed you.

You've been dead for about a week.

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I...

I don't remember that! Any of that! I wouldn't go near Overlord -- I promised Perceptor!

[drillsandballs]

Kagerou, if I could I would give you a copy of my memories, so that you at least had something, but I'm not lying to you. There isn't a lot that's worse than dying that I would have any reason to cover up by telling you that you died.

Overlord had Perceptor and was hurting him, a lot of us went try to get a hold of Overlord to prevent him from doing more. You and McCrane both died, Gunmax was hurt bad and I got Yuuta away before he could get hurt.

[He tried not to dwell on the fact that it meant he hadn't been there to try to protect the other BPs, or that he had been the only one of the BPs to get away without serious injury at best.]

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... I...

Why... why don't I remember...? Anything like that...? Why -- why would anyone delete me...?

[drillsandballs]

Maybe you don't remember because the memory is really bad. I think it would feel a bit crazy to remember what it's like to die.

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But it's my memory.

[drillsandballs]

I don't know what to tell you. I know it's yours, and that it's important, but won't you survive, even if it can't be got back?

[He worried about the other BP, especially since he only just came back.]

You are still Kagerou, Shadowmaru's friend and now a member of the Brave Police, right?

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No! You don't know it's important -- how important! If you knew, you wouldn't tell me it's all right to have lost it!

[He wouldn't snap like that -- normally. But he's not in a "normal" frame of mind right now. Later, he'll probably apologize.]

They still... they still took... part of me.

[drillsandballs]

Kagerou... maybe they didn't take it... maybe what ever brought you back just... wasn't able to keep everything. Maybe it was the newer memories or old ones.

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It's data! That's all it is! That's all I am!

If they could rebuild my entire AI, why couldn't they keep my data intact!

[drillsandballs]

I don't know Kagerou. I'm sorry.

I... I'm glad your alive though.

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I...

What do I do now?

[drillsandballs]

Now? You keep going. I mean it doesn't bring your memories back, but isn't it worse to stop living, stop making more memories, just because you are missing some?

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I... I don't know. I don't know what to do now. I don't want to die, I...

I just want it back.

[drillsandballs]

Hey, hey... you still have the rest of your memories right? You aren't going to die.

[Drill Boy really wished he had someone to go to on how to take care of this. Gunmax was out of the question even if he wasn't a bit touchy from being stuck in the medbay. He really couldn't put this on Boss, he had a hard enough time when Deckerd had freaked out on loosing part of his memory.

He wished McCrane was here, the more mature robot would know how to deal with this, or at least calm Kagerou down.]

I know... maybe you could try talking to the First Forged? I mean if you came back from the dead they had to have some kind of part in it.

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But I did, and now it's...

[He wishes, abruptly, that he was designed with the ability to cry. As a human would. Something, anything better than sitting here, wanting to scream because it was the only outlet for all of the confusion.]

[Anything at all.]

You really believe... they would help?

[drillsandballs]

You did it's in the past, that can't be changed, whether you have all your memories or not. What matters at this point is now.

I don't think it could hurt, the worst they can do is say they can't do anything about it.