re_alignment | [Voice]

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✘ dead space | vandal

[Voice]

So guys? Uh. Look. Two out of three of you are aware, but.

I guess while there's not some huge disaster going on we could talk about. Stuff?

I kind of have a thing. For all three of you. Surpriiiiise Percy... And uh. Look I know I kinda flipped out last time, but I'm starting to feel better and I'd like to discuss it.

I kinda got into this thinking all of you were an item, but I realized I was mistaken. That. Still doesn't change the fact that I'm really kind of into you all in a big way.

I just wanna know if I'm barking up the wrong tree or... yeah.

And before any of you say it, I don't wanna 'do better'. Can't change how I feel.

God fucking damn I'm so awkward.

I just wanna talk about it, I'm not saying you have to... do anything or make me happy or whatever, I just.

Haha, I guess I don't know what I want. I just want to get it out there, because it's been the elephant in the room for me for a while, you know?

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Right. So, polyamory bothered you then, but now it's all right?

You didn't even give me a chance to talk to you afterward. I might have felt the same, but I would have at least confronted you. I would have made sure, even if it hurt, so it didn't fester into...well...this.

Wing. Karrie.

But not you. [Speaking of making sure.]

I have no issues with polygamy so long as all parties are fully aware of the situation. If an involved party becomes uncomfortable with the arrangement, I will respond accordingly.

I desire your affections, Drift, but they are the ones who deserve your attentions at this point.

[ He's failed enough, by now, in numerous fashions. ]

I wasn't even aware of the 'situation'. All I wanted, when I did it, was...you. I wanted to see you happy. I wasn't planning a relationship like a military campaign. You can't plan them. They just happen.

Or they don't.

[And apparently here....they don't. ]

I see. I'm sorry.

[ Like a military campaign. How Perceptor has been approaching everything in his life recently. ]

Just give her a chance, Drift. Please.

I guess there's no point asking for you to grant me the same.

[Part of him is angry, that Perceptor so ruthlessly shut him down, that he shows up presuming he has some right, any right, to order Drift around. But it's hopeless. He sees that now. ]

Make her happy, Perceptor. I'll stay out of your way.

At this point I would be shocked if you wanted as much from me.

You should speak with Wing, when you have a chance, in addition to Karrie. I realize lack of blunt communication was our downfall, and it should not carry over to your other relationships.

Then be shocked.

Please, stop telling me to talk to everyone else, care about everyone else. I want. To talk. To you.

Even if it's to have you tell me you hate me. I just want to listen. Please.

I don't... I don't hate you, Drift. I could never.

I just want you to be happy, whether it be with Wing or Vandal or whoever catches your eye. [ Someone, anyone, better than Perceptor. ]

....and what if that includes you?

I think by now we've established that I'm utterly useless at all things relating to... this.

We have? I thought science required proof. Which means experimenting. Trying.

I'm no good at this, Drift.

[He can't help the laugh.]

Neither am I. But we can be...something to each other. We can try. Without labels or...whatever. Just see what happens.

Do you want to?

[ He doesn't dare to hope. Not until he's certain. ]

Yes! Of course I do.

..._please.

[ Perceptor feels a strange tug, a war between the rush of both rising and sinking feelings, and it's a moment or two before he responds. ]

...Will you give me time to think about it? I. I won't drop off the face of the planet like last time.

All the time you need. [It hurts to say, but it's the least amends he can make for having been such a fool in the first place.]

Thank you.

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