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[thxforthememories]

[It's probably around midnight or so when the post pops up. Or close enough to it that the effects of the red energon have finally worn off. He can touch things now. He's no longer a ghost.]

[And... still considerably unsettled and upset by recent events. Enough to make the following statement:]

I ... I want to learn how to be drunk.

[Because that seems like a great idea. It always worked for his role models around here, after all.]

Someone. Show me how. I'll be grateful.

[And that's all he says. He'll be at the bar, an unhappy pile of metal and wings. Waiting.]

Comments

Re: private

[neededthat]

Perhaps you should start with those steps instead of running away from your problems!

private

[thxforthememories]

I'm going to do it this way!

Re: private

[neededthat]

...Fine.

I hope to Primus that your friend is still in one piece when he does turn up.

private

[thxforthememories]

... What?

Re: private

[neededthat]

What if he went to the Badlands? Like you said, you haven't seen him since.

He just up and left, with no indication of where he went? Have you tried contacting him? Anything?

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[thxforthememories]

He wouldn't!

He... he's just sulking, I know it! He wouldn't leave m--

He wouldn't go away like that!

Re: private

[neededthat]

[there's a heavy exhale of air before he rubs his noseguard.]

Whatever happened between you two, it obviously meant a lot to the both of you, especially since he's gone, and you have decided to drink away your thoughts.

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[thxforthememories]

I hurt him, all right? I hurt him and I would... I want to not remember it! Just for a little while!

Why is that so wrong?

Re: private

[neededthat]

You'd rather forget about it, instead of owning up to your actions and apologizing?

[He shakes his head.]

Whatever makes you feel better, Kagerou.

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[thxforthememories]

I didn't say I wouldn't do that!

But why can't I do this too?

Re: private

[neededthat]

I never said you couldn't.

You're your own bot, Kagerou. You can make your own choices.

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[thxforthememories]

But you're angry about it.

Re: private

[neededthat]

Yes. I am.

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[thxforthememories]

... With me.

Re: private

[neededthat]

Because you're not thinking rationally about all this.

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[thxforthememories]

You wouldn't either.

If you were me.

Re: private

[neededthat]

[His voice turns stern. And even has a shakey edge to it.]

I'm not. But I lost someone close to me.

I'd rather not have the same thing happen to you, especially while you had a chance to actually do something!

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[thxforthememories]

[He winces, even if it isn't visible.]

I'm not... doing nothing. All right?

He won't answer me. And it hurts even more.

Re: private

[neededthat]

Then get out there and find him. Maybe he left his commlink behind.

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[thxforthememories]

He doesn't want to see me! Don't you understand?

This is what I was afraid would happen! It's my fault! Everyone said I should, so I did, but it's ruined now!

[He doesn't care that this makes no sense. His life has apparently fallen apart around him.]

I ruined it.

Re: private

[neededthat]

You did not ruin it.

Maybe he'll come back.

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[thxforthememories]

... Maybes aren't enough.