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[thxforthememories]

[For a long moment, when the feed clicks on... there's nothing. Only static. Did the manic-seeming BP start fidgeting with his Link again?]

[Then, abruptly:]

I'm sorry.

[The words are soft, choked. They're rough around the edges, as if edged by jagged points. If he were human, he'd have sounded like he'd been crying.]

[Despite the tone, the plea, it's clear the old Kagerou is back in the driver's seat again.]

I'm --

I'm so sorry.

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[thxforthememories]

Just... safe.

From everything.

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[raceme]

Isolating yourself will do you no good. We are worried about you.

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[thxforthememories]

It feels better, here.

Safe. Close.

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[raceme]

Away...

I'll respect your privacy, I understand how you might feel. [He has hurt his friends in the past when he was brainwashed too, he knows how awful that can make you feel.]But please, don't lock us out.

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[thxforthememories]

No. I don't... think there's anyone here who knows how I feel.

[Because he doubts anyone else had to witness the same memories he did -- with the same weight to them.]

I haven't locked anything.

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[raceme]

No but I want to understand. I want to help. So talk to me, please.

Then tell me where you are, Kagerou. [It's more of a plea than an order.]

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[thxforthememories]

If I talk, I have to think. I have to... remember that life. I don't want to!

[For the first time in his entire life, he wishes he could forget. He wishes he could lose those memories.]

[But he can't. And it's tearing him up almost as much as what happened.]

... Just up high.

Away from anything.

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[raceme]

But that like was not real, right? It was all fake.

Up high close to any particular temple or just..up? [He can fly too Kagerou. If he has it look around all the Haven to find you he will. The determinator, that's Blurr.]

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[thxforthememories]

That doesn't make it hurt any less!

[His voice shakes, there. It's difficult, to even try and keep his calm mask up.]

A temple.

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[raceme]

Sorry.

Yours?

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[thxforthememories]

I don't have a temple.

[Kagerou now you're being deliberately difficult.]

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[raceme]

But you have a glyph.

[:/ Yes. Stop it.]

I'll check all the temples then.

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[thxforthememories]

You don't have to.

You really don't.

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Yes, I have to. You are my friend.

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[thxforthememories]

Even now? After all of that?

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[raceme]

Specially now. It's important to stick with your friends during hard times.

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[thxforthememories]

Then... do as you like.

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[raceme]

Ten I will try to find you.

[ooc. do you mind assuming the rest? I'm a bit overwhelmed with stuff those days.]

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[thxforthememories]

Right.

((ooc: Sure!))