voice; dated to 4/7

[loyalflier]

I am painfully reminded why trips like last night are not worth it the following day... Why anyone thinks that is a way to really solve problems is beyond me.

[ voice sounds rough. likely going out with Kagerou had not been the best of ideas... who would have thought, right? no plans on leaving his room today. nope. ]

My processor feels like it is splitting apart... Apologies if I snap at anyone who knocks on that door.


[ private to Kagerou ]

Apologizing in case I did something stupid. Can't remember at the moment.


[ private to Blurr ]

You have my full permission to stop me next time. Hoping there won't be a next time.

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[thxforthememories]

Yes?

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[loyalflier]

Are you all right?

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[thxforthememories]

Aside from the headache, you mean?

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[loyalflier]

Naturally, yes.

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[thxforthememories]

I'm not hurt.

Just... worried.

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[loyalflier]

You didn't do anything wrong.

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[thxforthememories]

I wish I were still intoxicated enough to believe you.

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[loyalflier]

I think you should anyway. You're a good sort.

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[thxforthememories]

If I were 'good', this wouldn't have happened. I'm sure of it.

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[loyalflier]

You couldn't have known it was going to happen.

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[thxforthememories]

We've said these things before. Haven't we?

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[loyalflier]

I think so.

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[thxforthememories]

Then you should know I'll probably have the same answers.

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[loyalflier]

Likely, but you still need to hear that none of it was your fault. That there is a chance that Shadowmaru feels just as guilty even though he didn't do anything wrong either.

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[thxforthememories]

This would be so much easier if he would only talk to me...

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[loyalflier]

So go hunt him down.

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[thxforthememories]

... I'm not sure that's a good idea.

I could make it worse.

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[loyalflier]

If Cliffjumper sees fit to avoid me for a few days I plan on confronting him... whether he wants me to or not.

For better or worse.

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[thxforthememories]

How can you be so confident over "worse"?

What if he never speaks to you again?

What if he hates you?

I can't take that! Not from him!

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[loyalflier]

Because I would like to think our friendship can overcome anything. He has been by my side for the last year on Earth. Cliffjumper stayed behind to help me land the ship to avoid crashing into a populated area. The mech has been there for me when I needed to get my helm on straight and made adjusting to Earth easier on everyone.

Granted, he is easily flustered and doesn't like to be seen as anything other than a warrior with a rough exterior, but I trust him.

The question is... Do you trust the bond between you and Shadowmaru enough?

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[thxforthememories]

[Of course he trusts Shadowmaru. He trusts him more than any other robot alive. His first friend. His dearest friend.]

[Who... he apparently gave the last shred of himself to protect...]

[He can't be seen, but he's huddled into himself, wishing desperately he was made with the ability to cry.]

I trust him.

But I'm still... I'm still so afraid.

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[loyalflier]

It will work out, Kagerou. I promise.

It may be awkward. It may be a little painful. But with a bond like you two share, I think it can survive something like this.

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[thxforthememories]

I really... really hope so.

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[loyalflier]

You'll never know if you both run from this.

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[thxforthememories]

... I'll try.