re_alignment | [Voice | Location Untraceable] Regrets collect like old friends...~

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[Voice | Location Untraceable] Regrets collect like old friends...~

I DON'T remember everything that happened that last week and the things I remember..those aren't very nice but...

[The voice that speaks is clearly Blurr's. He sounds like his usual self again, but his voice is quiet, occasionally punctuated by long pauses, as if he's not sure how to continue.]

..I know I found a page. ONE of Trion's apparently and I...drew a few things that..._{I..I didn't knew this was going to happen and} ...and Wing and Ratchet… that was my fault too I drew them and they went insane.. like I did and I am the one to blame for that _and the bombs...[Blurr was trying to keep some composure, but his efforts are a lost cause.]

I-I'll take responsibility and accept the punishment you might deem necessary for the offenses but THEY weren't themselves and all this mess was only my fault..I...

...I'm sorry.

[The comm link cuts abruptly.]

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You and Blurr. At least you didn't intend to, right?

[More than he can say for himself.] That makes it different, that's what you're trying to tell me.

No. I don't... usually intend hurt dudes. Certainly not my friends.

It's just-- you think in such a confined box, I feel like. When you say things like Wing is the only one that matters to you, it made me angry. You have other friends, right? When... did they stop mattering, suddenly?

Like I said. You're better than I am.

[A shrug. He's tired of arguing, especially knowing he was wrong.]

....maybe I have a reason for that, Soundwave. Just as you have yours.

[But threatening him isn't the way to get him to open up.]

...Your words, not mine. I'm definitely no better than anyone else here. ...Maybe except Prism.

For deciding Vandal and the others don't matter? Because I can't think of any good reason for that.

I didn't say they don't matter. It's just...it's a long story. Ask Wing.

Well, you said Wing was all you had. ...Maybe I misunderstood you.

And if I did, I wanna hear it from you.

Maybe you did. Maybe I didn't explain it right. [He shrugs. It doesn't matter.]

Some other time. Right now Blurr needs you.

...I'm the last person Blurr needs. But you wouldn't... have known that.

Drift, if you don't wanna deal with me, just say so.

[A laugh] You certainly defended Blurr hard enough, it seems reasonable to imagine you're close.

[You did threaten to punch Drift for snapping at Blurr, Soundwave.]

And no, I wouldn't know, because you don't tell me. But you expect me to tell you things? [He shakes his head.] It doesn't work like that.

We are. Usually. It just... it got complicated.

[One can assume it was punching.]

You didn't ask, Drift. I'm not gonna spill everything on my mind; that'd be unfair to you. If you wanna know somethin', you ask, I tell. In your case, I asked. You don't wanna tell, that's your business. But you're bein' dodgy, so I dunno what yer expecting.

I hope you work things out with him. He needs a good friend.

[He sighs.] It's none of my business, really. And if you've talked with Wing at all, you already know most of my story. There's not much to add. He died, it's my fault and I never thought I'd see him again, never thought I'd be able to make any of what I did up to him.

And now I have a chance and...it all keeps going wrong. To the point where I can't even get angry at the person who turned him into that.

Enough?

...Better than I can give.

I talk to Wing, but I've never really... asked. I didn't think I had for awhile. Maybe that's my mistake. I dunno.

[Soundwave pauses, and he lowers his head.] I think I get it. A little bit.

Yeah. That's enough.

Look, let me... let me explain, then. I wasn't doin' that, and-- I was screwin' up on my side by just saying somethin' cruel like you wouldn't get it.

[Soundwave makes a point to, ah. Gently encrypt this conversation now.]

I was in a city called Axiom Nexus for awhile. It was there a Megatron released a virus. It was based on my polarity, and it caused everyone else to become the exact opposite of who they really are. Like Wing. H-heh, this is the second Ratchet that's gotten affected and, um. Yeah. Anyway.

It was because of that virus that many of my friends were affected. I was-- some bad things happened. I blamed the wrong people for all of that. I did a lot of stupid things as a result.

I'm sorry I didn't explain better before. But I just... I don't want it become that again, if. That makes any sense.

I know that feeling. [Because that's how he feels with Wing, about all the time. It seems everyone's closer to Wing than he is. And he shouldn't be jealous, but he is. ]

Wing probably has better things to talk about than what I did to him.

[He hopes.]

[He falls silent, listening to the story, and then nods. Yeah, he gets it.]

I wasn't going to do anything. I just wanted to understand why. Because well... Megatron is Megatron. But Blurr [He shakes his head. Blurr is not Megatron.]

You didn't upload a horrible memory to Wing's processor. I think you get off okay on this one, Drift. I dunno what the circumstances were between you and him... but he doesn't hold it against you.

Heh, Wing usually has somethin' nice to say. About almost anything. I don't see him focusin' on the negative.

[He exhales.] ...I'm sorry. For reacting like I did. I just... I don't blame Blurr. I can't.

I think killing someone still probably rates worse.

[A sort of twisted grin. Were they really going to argue about who was worse?]

Probably why he doesn't talk about it. Nothing very 'nice' in what happened on Theophany.

[Maybe, maybe Wing was trying to protect him by not telling anyone of his past. ]

I don't blame him. For the bombs, anything. I just want to know why he'd even think like that.

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