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[Voice]

Hey guys, just a heads up.

I'm heading back home for a day, since the medical needs have come to a decent trickle, I am in desperate need of a decent night's sleep.

If anyone needs me, comm me or leave a message... or say it now. Because I am going to pass the fuck out for the next day or so.

[Private to Drift/Wing]

Can I... talk to you guys? Do you have a minute? I mean separately. Privately.

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You don't really know any other women, sweetheart.

I dunno. The day I suss out what I truly want they'll throw a fucking parade.

[ She chuffs humorlessly. ]

Sorry. I made a mess, tell him I'm sorry. I- yeah.

I'll be fine. Some wine, sleep and sappy movies will do me well enough. Maybe some chocolate if I can find any.

Ah, well... don't Miko and Kay count? [ Don't mind him, he doesn't yet understand the finer points of human maturity.]

Karrie... I think you're very brave for telling us both. [His voice is soft and serious.] And I meant what I said the other day in Drift's room. I'm not opposed...but I'd need to speak to him first.

[And really, he feels if anything were going to happen, it should be with Drift, at least first, which makes talking with him all the more important.]

I will. And just be patient with him. Healthy loving relationships aren't something he's had. Ever. Before now. It's all new to him. I've had my challenges with him too but he's absolutely worth it.

[He offers a smile.] Maybe I can find you some in Pantry. [He should really stop doing that...]

They're both still little girls, hun.

I- yeah. I dunno. I'd rather have him come to me on his own. You know. I guess that's expecting a lot, though. I doubt the idea has ever crossed his mind, which. I guess says enough.

[ She frowns. That's true, but being outright immediately rejected still stung. ]

I'd like that. If you could check at least.

.......ah. [Learn something new everyday. He still looks a little confounded though, his hands coming up in front of his chestplate in a sort of grabby fashion.] But they both have bumpers...?

I meant, more, asking his permission actually... [A wide smirk as he glances skyward or a moment.] And you never know. He may not have even considered it possible before now. Our drive isn't biological, it's intellectual. Pleasure is addicting but you have to be exposed to it first you know?

[He gives a sympathic look; it's got a hug in it for the next time he sees you Vandal.]

I will. When do you want me to bring it by? [Or have Drift bring it by?]

Yeah but they're still both kinda immature. And those are breast or boobs or tits, whatever you want to call them. Not bumpers.

[ She redundantly points to her own chest. ]

Permission to what? [ You have to spell it out for her she is in a daze. ]

I guess. I don't know. It's asking a lot. And I was kind of a bitch.

[ She nods sheepishly. ] That'd be nice.

Ahhh, I do see yes.

[So much to learn, he's read about these, but practical application was another thing altogether. You pointed them out Vandal, so does that means it's okay for him to stare?]

Permission. ...to be intimate. [His cocks his head and mouth stretches for a moment into a slightly lopsided smile.] Assuming...you'd want that.

Well I guess it's good you care about each other as much as you do. Those things can be forgiven, right?

Count on it then. [He'll search the junk pile if he has to, and get a certain grounders help too.]

[ You can stare she doesn't mind you staring. ]

I-

Oh. Um. Well. I- haha. I hadn't thought about that? Actually? But I mean. I wouldn't be remotely. Opposed. I mean yes, I do. Want. That.

[ Honestly she had really only been thinking in the kissing, affection, holding hands and cuddling business but that definitely sounds nice... ]

Yeah. I just... ah. I feel like I screwed everything up.

Thank you, Wing.

[Well good because he does. Or least he takes a good look.]

You hadn't? Well...it kind of comes with the territory. Often, anyway. I...would like to find a way to please you Karrie.

[ Well that intimacy too but yeah, Wing means a more advanced level. Seems he'll have to have a talk with Drift soon.]

It's a thing that happens between people. I'll talk with him, though you shouldn't hesitate to do it yourself when you're feeling able.

I-

Look honey. You and Drift both have this thing about... pleasing me or making me happy or whatever. But there's one thing you can't force-

And it's that. If that-

If it is. A thing. I want it to be genuine, not because someone is doing me a favor to placate me.

[ She looks off to the left, briefly distracted. ]

Yeah I just... I don't know. I never thought it would go so badly. I guess I told myself I was ready for rejection but not on...

Not like that.

Oh, [He stifles a gusty laugh.] I meant that in a more, um, literal physical sense.

[He's trying really hard not be lewd here Vandal.]

And, I've never be anything other than genuine with you Karrie. If I do this, it's because I want it to.

[He's realizing how true that is the more he thinks about it.]

I... do you want to tell me what happened?

Uh- OH! Oh. Yeah gotcha. Hah...hah.

[ AWKWARDDDDDD. ]

Alright. I just. You know. Don't want to be anybody's pity fuck.

[ She winces. ]

Uh. He told me I could "do better". The uh. Good old. "It's not you it's me."

[He nods. Yeeeeeaahh.]

...pity fuck? [Oops he said fuck. B| ] I--Sorry--I understand the meaning, but I don't know that I fully understand the negative connotation to it?

[Because people liking you enough to want to make you happy is...bad?]

...unless it's just that you don't want to be pitied regardless?

[But then he twitches, because this part it all too familiar.]

Er....yeah. That's. A thing that he does. Pushing people away. Admittedly, there are times I wonder...[his voice goes quiet]...if he wants me at all.

It means... when you sleep with someone to please or placate them, but you aren't actually in love with or attracted to them in that way. Not to be mistaken for friends with benefits, that's different. And yeah, I don't really want pity to begin with.

[ She sighs. ]

Yeah well he doesn't seem to have a problem making out with your or macking on Percy at least.

[ She winces, that sounds bitter. ]

I can certainly see why placation would leave a bad taste in one's mouth. [His face smooths into stark earnestness.] I'd never be ingenuine about my affections. Karrie I wouldn't offer if I didn't mean it.

I just...can't make any promises yet.

[He still needs to speak with Drift about it, and sort the rest of this out.]

Well yes, but--[.......wait huh?]

[His head turns slowly. So slowly you can even hear the mechanisms churning until he stops to look sidelong at you.]

...Percy?

I know. It's just-

Yeah... you. Didn't know? To be honest I thought you guys all had a thing. Which makes it extra awkward because I wouldn't mind cozying up with Percy, either. But yeah. Walked up one day when Perce and I went shooting and they were kissing.

Kind of weird but... I-

He. Didn't. Say anything? To you?

[Well this conversation sure took a turn for the stunningly unexpected.]

I...

We...

.....what?

[Not to mention awkward.]

Um. No. He didn't.

I've spoken to Perceptor here and there but we aren't otherwise involved.

[yeah. AWWWWWWKARD.]

....when did this happen?

[Explanation, there had to be one around somewhere, right?]

Oh...

A while ago?

Um...

[That's not exactly helpful. His lips purse together nervously.]

Was it... before Drift went spider hunting in the Badlands?

I don't really remember honestly.

[He sags visibly, the tension not so much leaving his frame as just redistributing itself, as he grows tired of holding it.]

[He rubs the crest of his helm, several silent moments passing.]

I trust him.

I do. If it was before he made a commitment to me then there's no obligation to tell me.

[But.]

I just wish I'd known... [Did he have a right to know, to want to know?] I hope I haven't made things difficult or strange for Perceptor.

[And OH. Should he have been so sparkset on that commitment? Drift had seemed uncertain, but because he kept saying Wing could do better. What if...]

[He shakes his head.]

Oh...

[ Well she looks visibly shaken even more so now. ]

[He lets out a little, high-pitched laugh.] It's kinda funny, we had the whole conversation, and I was trying so hard to validate and bring us together and he was all concerned about stopping me from being with other people...

[He puts a hand over his eyes and tilts his head back, another irony laced laugh slipping out before he can stop it.]

I suppose it's just as well because I never told him about Blurr. Which, wasn't even really me, or Blurr for that matter. And well we barely talk anymore now...

[He bites his lip and shakes his head, venting several times, trying to get a hold of himself. Over-reacting to this wasn't going to do anyone any good.]

Ah-haaaaa, I'm really sorry. You don't need to hear any of this. I shouldn't drag you into. I'm sorry you had to stumble upon it.

Yeah look.

The best thing in any relationship? Is honesty. Just. My take on things. A little honesty goes a long way.

It is. I know.

[He sighs.]

The whole thing with Blurr was during all that trouble with the pages. I really just want it all behind me.

[He shakes his head, it's already done so much damage.]

Do I have a right to demand the truth from Drift? What if it was before we made a dedication?

All I can say is what I'd want, and I like thinks to be all out in the open.

I can't speak for what is best for you.

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