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So guys? Uh. Look. Two out of three of you are aware, but.

I guess while there's not some huge disaster going on we could talk about. Stuff?

I kind of have a thing. For all three of you. Surpriiiiise Percy... And uh. Look I know I kinda flipped out last time, but I'm starting to feel better and I'd like to discuss it.

I kinda got into this thinking all of you were an item, but I realized I was mistaken. That. Still doesn't change the fact that I'm really kind of into you all in a big way.

I just wanna know if I'm barking up the wrong tree or... yeah.

And before any of you say it, I don't wanna 'do better'. Can't change how I feel.

God fucking damn I'm so awkward.

I just wanna talk about it, I'm not saying you have to... do anything or make me happy or whatever, I just.

Haha, I guess I don't know what I want. I just want to get it out there, because it's been the elephant in the room for me for a while, you know?

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[Oh dear.]

Time will tell. Did you try him back? Maybe it was an accident...

[Wishful thinking, perhaps.]

No, please Karrie, not you too. It's fine if things don't work out, if people aren't what the other needs or wants. But it's not about being good enough.

[He hesitates a moment.] I could probably get away. But...

I'm worried about him now. Again. Too much, probably. It's likely why he's been avoiding me...

[He chews his lip, then shakes his head.]

I'm sorry, I love you both. I don't want this to be about choosing sides. But if you need me, I'll come.

I might later... I just. It seemed to be actually going okayish. Aside from the whole. Probable rejection and stuff but.

[ She smiles sadly. ] Sorry. Almost fell into the same routine.

I'm really sorry Wing. This is all my fault. I should've just kept my yap shut. I just...

Things were going better. You do what you need to do, don't worry about me. Try worrying about yourself for a change.

You should. Maybe something else came up. Either way, keep trying, at least to clear things up.

It happens. As long as you're okay with me reminding you. [A weak smile.]

And maybe that's not entirely fair. Maybe I'm the one that's been avoiding him...? [He sighs with a shake of his helm.] I just...I feel like I've taken something from him, his privacy, with this sword bond thing... [He rubs his forecrest.] That's probably a ridiculous way to try and make up for it...

[Another shake of his helm.] Don't, you have questions, and I still don't fault you for posing them even if you don't get the best answers.

[He pauses a moment.] I want to go look for Drift first. Just, make sure he's okay. Then I'll come by, all right?

I will.

And thank you, I prefer that you do. You guys are sometimes the only things that keep me going.

Don't balem yourself, Wing. Too much of that going around.

[ A nod. ]

Do what you need to do, okay? I've got Percy here. I'll be okay.

[He nods.] I'm happy to be able to Karrie. [Sometimes it feels like it's all he can do.]

I--Aaah...ha. Okay. [Except he can't. Because this is his fault in the deepest and most binding of senses. If he'd not failed, if he'd not died...this would never have been an issue and Drift would have his own Great Sword.]

I will, thank you for understanding. ...ah. [Ooohh.] Why don't you ping me later, when you want me to come by? [You know, when it's safe?]

That response didn't inspire confidence, Wing. [ SASSY LOOK. ]

[ Pause... ]

WING! Jesus, we're not- we're not fucking. Christ! I haven't been laid in eight years but I'm not that fast!

I'll try not to think about it, how's that? [Pleading look.]

[Okay, the reaction lifts his spirits a little.]

I should hope not. [ B| ] Not while on the Link with me. [Unless there's participation involved, which at this point would just be...strange.]

But honestly, at this point I think all I'm going to do is bring awkward into that equation. Give it time.

Fine, fine. Good as it gets I guess.

[ Sigh sighs, pinching the bridge of her nose. ]

Sometimes that's just the way things are.

I've given a lot of time. Who knows when the next great tragedy will come and sweep us all, huh? You guys may have time, but I'm already borrowing it.

[A brief conciliatory smile. It doesn't quite stick, but the effort is there.]

Vandal...

[He can relate. "Don't hesitate" is something he's been saying for a while now. Though it does make him realize something, something he thought was doing good at the time, but now feels selfish.]

I understand. But, you can't force it.

[Or you can, and then wonder later...]

I know.

I guess I don't know what I'm doing. This is my fault.

Who would? This isn't your average undertaking.

And don't be so hard on yourself. You did it out of love, how can that be a bad thing?

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