[Voice | Location Untraceable] Regrets collect like old friends...~

[raceme]

I DON'T remember everything that happened that last week and the things I remember..those aren't very nice but...

[The voice that speaks is clearly Blurr's. He sounds like his usual self again, but his voice is quiet, occasionally punctuated by long pauses, as if he's not sure how to continue.]

..I know I found a page. ONE of Trion's apparently and I...drew a few things that..._{I..I didn't knew this was going to happen and} ...and Wing and Ratchet… that was my fault too I drew them and they went insane.. like I did and I am the one to blame for that _and the bombs...[Blurr was trying to keep some composure, but his efforts are a lost cause.]

I-I'll take responsibility and accept the punishment you might deem necessary for the offenses but THEY weren't themselves and all this mess was only my fault..I...


...I'm sorry.

[The comm link cuts abruptly.]

Comments

[video]

[inferiordude]

I didn't hurt him on purpose. 'Sides, that's between me an' him an' that's a low blow, Drift. Thought you were above that scrap.

No. He doesn't. An' I guess it's sweet that yer protecting him but you're not helping. At all. This obviously ain't a thing you're gonna understand.

Re: [video]

[sword_redemption]

Not when it's Wing that keeps getting hurt.

He's...he's all I have. And I lost him already through my own thoughtlessness, my own stupidity. I can't--I don't want it to happen again.

[video]

[inferiordude]

All you have, huh. Hm. [His visor flickers, but he won't comment further.]

...Look, I get it. I really do. But lashin' out is doin' you more harm than good right now, Drift. If yer worried about Wing? ...Go see to him, all right? Takin' it out on a dude that couldn't even control himself... what good is that doin' right now?

[video]

[sword_redemption]

[For a moment he looks ready to argue. He has them lined up, arguments about absolution and guilt, about recklessness, about who has a right to speak and who doesn't. He fights them, optics shuttering. He knows when he won't be heard. ]

All who actually give me a chance.

[A shrug, dismissive. This is nothing new. Bumblebee made a subspecialty in shutting Drift down, Ratchet seemed to snipe any words to cross Drift's vocalizer.]

You're right. [He won't say about what. ]

[video]

[inferiordude]

Hm. ...You're absolutely selfish. I thought you were... different.

I'm sure.

Don't pick on Blurr. I won't have it.

[video]

[sword_redemption]

[Another hesitation, like a blow landing. And this time the nod is painful, genuine.]

You're right. I am. I thought I was better, too.

[video]

[inferiordude]

[A little more gently.] You can be better than this.

Or am I wastin' my time?

[video]

[sword_redemption]

It's not your job. [And no, he can't. And that's the problem. Believe him, he's tried. ]

[A long moment. ].

Take care of Wing and Vandal, please.

[video]

[inferiordude]

...What's all that supposed to mean? Take care of Wing and Vandal. What're you doing?

[video]

[sword_redemption]

It means you can do a better job than I can.

[video]

[inferiordude]

...Didn't you already say that I'm the one that hurt Wing? [He laughs awkwardly, a little sadly.]

And with Vandal... what I knew. It wasn't with her permission. I'm not better than you, Drift, I just...

You're goin' about this all wrong.

[video]

[sword_redemption]

You and Blurr. At least you didn't intend to, right?

[More than he can say for himself.] That makes it different, that's what you're trying to tell me.

[video]

[inferiordude]

No. I don't... usually intend hurt dudes. Certainly not my friends.

It's just-- you think in such a confined box, I feel like. When you say things like Wing is the only one that matters to you, it made me angry. You have other friends, right? When... did they stop mattering, suddenly?

[video]

[sword_redemption]

Like I said. You're better than I am.

[A shrug. He's tired of arguing, especially knowing he was wrong.]

....maybe I have a reason for that, Soundwave. Just as you have yours.

[But threatening him isn't the way to get him to open up.]

[video]

[inferiordude]

...Your words, not mine. I'm definitely no better than anyone else here. ...Maybe except Prism.

For deciding Vandal and the others don't matter? Because I can't think of any good reason for that.

[video]

[sword_redemption]

I didn't say they don't matter. It's just...it's a long story. Ask Wing.

[video]

[inferiordude]

Well, you said Wing was all you had. ...Maybe I misunderstood you.

And if I did, I wanna hear it from you.

[video]

[sword_redemption]

Maybe you did. Maybe I didn't explain it right. [He shrugs. It doesn't matter.]

Some other time. Right now Blurr needs you.

[video] /rolls in for a threadjack

[cliffjumper]

[Have Cliffjumper staring at you, confused, and then his optics narrow.]

Soundwave, the slag? While he ain't blamin' the right person since it was Alpha Trion's book or whatever slag that's the origin of this fraggin' mess, I'd think you would have a bit more...

Understanding.

[Since from where he's standing, you've dealt with worse issues than misplaced blame with a lot more... grace. Colour him confused (but not navy).]

[video]

[inferiordude]

Cliff... this doesn't involve you and I ain't explainin' it on the Link.

[video]

[cliffjumper]

An' I don't need any explanation if you don't want to give it, Soundwave.

[Just... tilting his helm here and then shakes it.]

Just pointin' out you're usually a lot more slaggin' smooth 'bout things like this, close to ya or not.

[What'd Megatron say, huh.]

[video]

[inferiordude]

I'll do it. Just... not on here.

...Far from perfect, you know.

[video]

[cliffjumper]

Yeah, I know, but blame laid wrongly or not, seemed a bit... much?

[You surprised him, is all.]

If you want to. [Have a small, slightly ironic, dry grin.] Ain't got the best ability to trust out there, but if ya want to tell, I'll listen.

[... Not that, admittedly, the idea that there might be something (dangerous) that he doesn't know wouldn't gnaw on him, but... but he could make an attempt. Surely.]

[video]

[inferiordude]

...Yeah, I. Maybe.

[Maybe he did overreact.]

I trust you, Cliffy. I don't think I'm wrong on that, yeah?

[video]

[cliffjumper]

Just consider it, okay?

[He's not angry, just... surprised and confused, so that's all he wanted... Soundwave considering that he could have done that another way.]

Might be trigger-happy, but I don't go spillin' secrets no. Ya know you can.