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[Voice | Location Untraceable] Regrets collect like old friends...~

I DON'T remember everything that happened that last week and the things I remember..those aren't very nice but...

[The voice that speaks is clearly Blurr's. He sounds like his usual self again, but his voice is quiet, occasionally punctuated by long pauses, as if he's not sure how to continue.]

..I know I found a page. ONE of Trion's apparently and I...drew a few things that..._{I..I didn't knew this was going to happen and} ...and Wing and Ratchet… that was my fault too I drew them and they went insane.. like I did and I am the one to blame for that _and the bombs...[Blurr was trying to keep some composure, but his efforts are a lost cause.]

I-I'll take responsibility and accept the punishment you might deem necessary for the offenses but THEY weren't themselves and all this mess was only my fault..I...

...I'm sorry.

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[Drift would not be this upset if it had been anyone else but Wing.]

What were you thinking? Why would you draw Wing at all? Much less....insane? Like that?

Back off. Right now.

Or what?

Don't try this with me, dude. I'm all for pacifism, but I'm this close to pacifisting your face.

Try it. You've hurt Wing, too. Why not just take it out on me, instead.

I can take it. I deserve it.

Wing doesn't. Any of it.

I didn't hurt him on purpose. 'Sides, that's between me an' him an' that's a low blow, Drift. Thought you were above that scrap.

No. He doesn't. An' I guess it's sweet that yer protecting him but you're not helping. At all. This obviously ain't a thing you're gonna understand.

Not when it's Wing that keeps getting hurt.

He's...he's all I have. And I lost him already through my own thoughtlessness, my own stupidity. I can't--I don't want it to happen again.

All you have, huh. Hm. [His visor flickers, but he won't comment further.]

...Look, I get it. I really do. But lashin' out is doin' you more harm than good right now, Drift. If yer worried about Wing? ...Go see to him, all right? Takin' it out on a dude that couldn't even control himself... what good is that doin' right now?

[For a moment he looks ready to argue. He has them lined up, arguments about absolution and guilt, about recklessness, about who has a right to speak and who doesn't. He fights them, optics shuttering. He knows when he won't be heard. ]

All who actually give me a chance.

[A shrug, dismissive. This is nothing new. Bumblebee made a subspecialty in shutting Drift down, Ratchet seemed to snipe any words to cross Drift's vocalizer.]

You're right. [He won't say about what. ]

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Don't you have more constructive things to be doing.

Than getting answers about why someone would hurt the only--

No. The answer's no.

He didn't know. And you're just being petty. And there are other people who could use your help. Like Vandal.

Jackaft.

Think what you want. All I know is the best mech here is fraggin' devastated by this little...what? Prank?

You think Wing would approve of this approach?

No. I don't even know what Wing wants anymore.

[A sudden movement, and a loud sound, as Drift drives his fist into a wall, before swiping that hand, the armor dented and welling with energon, over his face.]

You're right. I have no right. I have..._{no right} [Everything he does is wrong. Everything. Every step he tries to take to follow Wing, to do what he thinks Wing would have done and it's never worked out. Never. ]

Yeah. Careful.

Just take a while to increase the airflow there. It'll work out.

[A long cycle of air.]

It will. It always does, right?

[Blurr is silent for a few seconds, startled by the yelling.]

I ..thought it was just a normal piece of paper..I was only doodling things...

Doodling Wing being evil. And Ratchet [Oh yeah him too.]

Why? Why would you even think that? Why would you fantasize about the kindest, gentlest, most honorable mech here being...like that?

Iwasnotfantasizing!

I talked with Soundwave Cliffjumper and Megatron about their world and they mentioned how ^Autobots were bad guys there _{and how I was a mean mechs too} and I was only trying to imagine how they might look.

[You drew Vandal in a dress and flowers, man. Like you are one to talk about using your imagination to draw weird stuff.]

I'm sorry. [Soundwave and Starscream have been tagteaming him in the interim.]

I'm sorry to have yelled at you. I had no right. You didn't hurt me, after all. You don't need to apologize to me. I have no right to put myself into it in the first place.

[He was drawing her happy, Blurr, not twisted and evil.]

No no it's fine..I understand...I know I deserve it....[Blurr can't really blame Drift, honestly. He knows all this is his fault.]

[Details. The thing is, we both thought it was just that, drawings.]

Actions have consequences we often don't intend. You didn't mean any of it to happen.

But instead of apologizing over voice, you need to visit those you really hurt, Wing, Ratchet, First Aid, and you need to talk to them. And it's up to them to forgive you or not.

[Another long silence.]

I will do that I only HOPE they would like to to talk to me.

That's their decision to make. Not yours to make for them.

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god i am so sorry this is so late ;-;

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Ppff god so I am, somehow I missed this reply /fail

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